Thursday, December 08, 2005

Some Cheese with that Whine?

The Hubby says I have an attitude problem. He says that I complain about everything. And that I always like to get my way. Now. And if I don't get my way, I resort to slamming doors and using brute force.

And I'm thinking, is that how he really sees me? How people see me?

Yes, I admit I like to rant--fine. I like to whine. I'm a whiner. And yes, I am short-tempered (but ask people who've known me; vast improvement in this area), and patience is not one of my virtues (I need to tend to the fruits of the spirit more. sigh). But that doesn't mean I'm not happy, or that I don't find joy in anything. In fact, if you ask me, I love my life. I've been blessed with so much. Sure, there are always things that I feel can be improved or can do better. But that doesn't mean I'm not content.

As for getting my way, yes, I like getting my way. I've been getting my way for 18 years. I've been away from family and basically on my own since I was 12. I'm used to getting my way. I'm used to being in charge. Nearly two decades of getting my way isn't easy to change.

But The Hubby has a point. I guess it isn't easy to live with me (I think I hear heartfelt agreement from the seester and the cuzins). I'm being selfish, self-centered.

Suddenly, I'm ashamed.

But is that going to change me?

1 comment:

trapped said...

and then, there's the female theory that women complain not because they want something, but only because they want their concerns to be understood. but personally, i don't think you fall in this category.

you whine because you want to get things done. you're short-tempered because you want it done now. period. nothing to be ashamed of that.

the hubby, now stuck with living with you for the rest of his productive years, will have to deal with that. in conclusion? be yourself but go easy on the husband. :p